Longevity.

Yesterday I planned to finish and post a song that I've been working on since 2008 called Longevity.  It is a terrifying process in giving it away.  I realize my limitations with my hobby of music, I become terribly self-conscious when sharing my art, and I fear more than anything the realization that all of my arduous labor and passion will go unnoticed by most.

Today, I took a day off to erase a great deal of items from my to-do list.  One of which was to run 10 miles.  Making myself suit up to go run long distances is also a terrifying process in and of its own.  I never know how my body is going to react.  Will it be hell?  Do I feel like doing it?  In the long run what's it good for?

I did both.

Longevity is and was a song about the need to persevere when life gets difficult.  I think its started with me trying to make my ex-marriage work out when it felt like I was at a loss.  I changed my mind and decided to end my marriage, but the song and its idea persisted.  Regardless of whether I feel like it or not, it behooves me to get up out of bed and make something of myself.  When I'm making headway I love my life and I love myself.  And headway requires the simple determination to continue to stand up even when it's the last thing I want to do.  I can't give up.

I am still in the process of shaping myself after some major changes.  But I still have the chisel and I still have the marble.  I think continuing to create music will help me to take shape.

I have to make music.  I like the way I feel when I run.  That is Longevity to me.

Have a listen to my song if you'd like.

-M